When I started this blog it didn’t feel like I was doing a lot of writing. Sure I was working on the book, sure I was doing my morning pages, I was preparing for a workshop I was giving. It just didn’t seem like a lot. Today I feel like I’m doing a lot of writing. I’m doing my morning pages. I’m working on the next book. I am trying to put together a workshop proposal or two. What has changed?
Mostly what has changed is the season. In the late summer and early autumn it makes sense to start pulling into yourself. It feels “right” to be spending time putting your thoughts in order. It feels good to be gathering and storing and bedding down for the long winter nights.
Now that it’s spring there are so many other things I’d rather be doing than sitting at my computer typing out words. Even worse, editing and rewriting things that I’ve already put down onto my “pages”.
Last week I talked about stepping out and I am really enjoying taking the time to get outside and walk. I like having new things on my calendar. Sadly, all these exciting new things make sitting down to write even harder.
My spiritual life is also taking another turn. I am involved in a spiritual community project this week with the local COG council. I’m taking on students again and need to prepare classes. The workshop projects are expanding my circles. I’ve found myself committing to working regularly with a new small group. (At least I’m not in charge of that one!) Even my dreams are busy.
Theoretically a writer needs input. Something has to ‘prime the pump’ to get things started. We’ve all seen blogs and Facebook postings that really have no impact or interest to anyone but the person writing. I suspect I’ve written a fair share of those myself. All the stepping out I’m doing will hopefully help keep my writing fresh, interesting and inspirational.
I do want to connect. I would like to inspire. I love it when my readers “share” my blog on Facebook or recommend it to their friends. I really appreciate the comments when my posts have been helpful. (I also have appreciated a critique or two, but not quite the same way.) I know that I can’t do that if I’m just stuck in my own head and my own house.
I keep reminding myself that balance is not a static thing. Balance is dynamic, always changing and adjusting. The balance that works in the fall is necessarily different than the balance that works in the spring. With the season coming so early this year adjusting is just a little unfamiliar, but not impossible.
So I will find time to talk with friends. I will find time to get outside and walk. I will find time for my spiritual work. I will find time to do some spring cleaning and maybe even gardening. I will find time to read everyone’s blogs and post occasional comments. I will find time, and inspiration, to write.
Hows that for an affirmation?