I skipped my blog last week. No notice. No excuses. No nothing. Just didn’t write.
I hit that overwhelmed point. I had things to say. Too many things it seems. I couldn’t find a focus. I couldn’t find a focus in the rest of my life either. I missed a doctor’s appointment. I discovered I hadn’t gotten in my time card when no check came in the mail. I had laundry (and water) in the basement. I had boxes (empty) all over the house. I was a mess.
In all fairness, I’m probably still a mess, but it’s getting better. I got out the calendar and started writing things down (rather than relying solely on the cell phone, which seems to drop appointments for no good reason.) I let go of an obligation that was the “one thing too many” that sent me on this spiral. I got the boxes out of the middle of the living room and into a “staging area” so I can fill them one at a time and put them back.
I’m working on my sleep schedule. At least I’m sleeping, even if the hours are still a little odd. I’m putting away laundry and watering the poor, sad plants. I had my corn for Lammas* and decided I am not in a hurry to dig out the harvest season decorations. I’m trying to be kind to myself – one step at a time.
Last week I got a notification from WordPress saying “Happy Fifth Blogging Anniversary!” My goodness, has it really been that long? I spent some time this last week wondering if I was done, if I needed a serious blogging break. I decided that I’m still good, as long as my readers will forgive an occasional dropped post like last week.
Having a weekly blog is one of my touch points in a rather unstructured life. I need those now and again. Once a week is not so high pressure I can’t handle it. It’s not so infrequent it doesn’t matter. It holds me accountable to take time to reflect on my life, my choices, my spirituality, my vision. Those are good things.
So, dear reader, I may be a mess but if you’ll still have me I’ll still be around on Mondays.
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This weekend I received my “Happy Anniversary” notice from WordPress. Apparently I’ve been blogging weekly for 3 years! Who knew 3 years ago that I’d still be doing this?
Last year I wrote about 3 years being like a trilogy. If that’s true this past year has certainly been a climax. It also implies that this next year is a new start. That’s definitely the feeling I have in my life, so why not in my blog?
I have so much to be grateful for in this past year. You, my loyal readers, have been incredibly supportive of my journey! My second book, When Gods Come Knocking: An Exploration of Mysticism from a Deist Perspective, was published (and is available in paperback or Kindle at Amazon 🙂 ). The ending, and new beginning is marked by the bariatric surgery that went so much better than I had any reason to expect.
So here I am at a new beginning looking forward to another year of weekly blogs. What will I write about? Will there be new insights? New friends? New adventures? I hope so. And I hope that you will continue to read along as I write about my journey.
Thank you again for all the support.
I think of the last week in July as my blogging anniversary. Indeed, WordPress sent me a congratulations and happy second anniversary message late last week. As I embark upon my third year of blogging I can’t help but consider the larger arc of what I do here.
Last year I wrote a blog Anniversary and expressed my gratitude for all my readers. I spent that first year experimenting with blogging. I wrote about whatever struck my interest and I experimented with styles and themes. This second year seems to have been a bit of an interlude. There is much more deeply personal material. But I’m not sure I’ve established a direction.
I also started a second blog LisaSpiralReads. That’s been an interesting exercise in itself. I challenged myself to write 50 book reviews in a year. My first real “blogging challenge”. So far I am very happy with how it’s gone. Who knows, maybe this year I’ll get ambitious and try NaNoWriMo.
If this blog were a trilogy I would be at the beginning of the final book. Not to suggest that I’ll quit at the end of the year. Even long series tend to have the ups and downs of multiple trilogies. It’s how humans tend to cycle I suppose. In any case, if I were looking at the last book in a trilogy what would I hope to accomplish in this last year?
Over all my writing is starting to take off. When I started my first year I was just committing to writing my first book. The second year started with my Manifest Divinity being released. My second book When Gods Come Knocking is at the editors and I have a piece in the anthology Rooted in the Body, Seeking the Soul: Magic Practitioners Living with Disabilities edited by Tara Miller due out this fall. I was asked to write a small article for our local Women’s Press and I’ve had a few articles accepted by the Pagan News Collective on-line. Hopefully it will be a year of expansion.
I’m not certain where this year will take me or my blog. But I do want to thank all of my readers who’ve joined me this far on my journey. I can’t express how much I appreciate knowing that my ‘musings’ are being read and enjoyed. I hope you’ll continue to support me through the ups and downs of the coming year.
I posted my first blog on July 26 2011. That makes this the one year anniversary week for the blog! Yea!!! I haven’t acquired thousands of rapt followers, a long list of blogging awards or international acclaim. But then, that isn’t why I started blogging in the first place.
My first post was under 400 words. (I average somewhere in the 500 range.) It’s a very optimistic little ditty about Spirituality and daily living. Well this blog has certainly been that, and much more. I think what I envisioned a year ago was some sort of little weekly sermonette on very grand topics of spirituality and spiritual practice. I’m SO glad that’s NOT what this has become.
Instead this blog has been an exercise in opening. I’ve had to learn to express myself in an honest and sometimes very vulnerable way. Hopefully doing that while still being (at least marginally) entertaining and readable.
In the last year I’ve covered a huge range of topics from very personal to political (in the sense of civil rights) and thrown a good chunk of Spirituality in there to boot. I’ve blogged about the things that have touched my heart. This hasn’t been a journal in any sense, but it has been an exercise in focusing on where I am in the moment. Occasionally it’s even been a plug for the work I’m doing with writing a book and presenting workshops on Spiritual practice.
What I’ve found it that you can develop real friendships on the internet. I’ve found that I feel incredibly supported by my friends who follow my blog and especially by those who write encouraging comments. I have found that some of the hardest things to share are the most important. I’ve found that speaking from the heart is the only way to truly have an impact on others.
So on the anniversary of my blog I will write another very short little post. This time rather than visions of grander I offer my humble thank you. Thank you, to all my dear and treasured readers for finding and following my journey. May we all continue to grow and thrive in all our endeavors in the coming year.